Step One

I'm officially registered in the two classes I need this Fall semester at Orange County Community College in Middletown, NY.  

Phew!!!  I won't be set back a year- I can start the steps to go after my passion NOW instead of later- and I know I'm IN.  (At least for this first step).  It's such a huge relief.  I'm ballsy enough to make huge dents in my lifelong-held fears of stuttering, mentally say "screw off" to the remainder of those fears, take risk, and make a big life change.  But uncertainty and lack of a plan (for something this big, anyway) physically wrecks my nerves.  I'm happy to move, but also sad.  It's still difficult for various reasons, but having a set plan now makes me feel a lot better.  Now I can just push  my head down and proceed through steps to move forward.  And I know in a little while I can step back for a moment and enjoy the good parts.